Help.. Pregnant and I wanna Die!!?

Ok, so I am 14 years old and I have been thrue a very hard time my grandfather died about 3 weeks ago and then i lost my dad in a semi-truck accident. All I have is my mom and i am an only child. Ive told people this plenty of times and someone actually told our school councilor but I want to die like I would do anything in the world to be able to get out of the pain in in right now I just feel like their is no one in the world that understands what im going thrue and how it makes me feel, because im pregnant me and my boyfreind have had alot and hes with me everytime possible amd I love him so much my mom knows im pregnant and im due June 24, 2011, which since thats almost a month away im freaking out im scared because im 14 and i dont know how to give birth and all that stuff. but ive told my mom that i wanna die but she thinks im just doing it for attention which is not the case. if i wasent pregnant right now i would have killed myself a long time ago. m docter says that im making myself emmotionally sick cause i throw up alot and its not from the pregnant thing i tried to shoot myself and starve myself to death but then when i think about it i cant do that to an innocent little baby. everything is always ,y fault i have people at school threatining to kill me and my baby im scared to go to bed at night cause i dont want anything to happen to her. and i lie to my mom bout hurting everyday so i wont have to go to school. I just cant take this anymore i throw up everytime i cry. and people alwyas say it will get better and everything will all work out. i know their trying to help and make me feel better but im pregnant they dont know what im feeling inside, and i cant do this. and people always say i need help< like serious help. i cover uo all the pain so that no one will see it and i try rto stay strong but then when im home and its just ,me i staart crying. and its just been getting worse i dont know what to do but someone please help me.